( This story is about a girl who was diagnosed with poly cystic ovarian disease (PCOD). She made her way through it and is now blessed with a son. 10% women fight this disease silently starting from teen age till 60. Spreading the message and acknowledging is the least men and woman can do, and those fighting it; ‘You can!’)
Unused fire places now replaced with electric heaters, pity, she thought. As she did, she stared at the perfectly carpeted floor with sprinkles of Chocó’s dropped by the 3-year-old that brightens her every morning with his dimples.
2 bedrooms were enough. Enough, for infinite love to reside, for growth to enhance, and to make a house, a home.
He coloured as a true artist would, he allotted one colour to every segment of his work. Action man’s and super heroes mostly.
“I’m hungry mama”; there he goes, his commandment for evening snacks, she smiled standing in the corner of her the hall. As she walked across the room, she wondered Chocó’s with cold milk or nutri-bar with Tropicana juice? He would point at either one.
Simplicity of food, thought, innocence and life.Lesser the choices, lesser the drama.
She watched him eat as he made way for a pile of Chocó’s in a large spoon into his still very tiny mouth.
“Chocó’s it is.”
The dim-lit room shines with his eyes and the monotony of the winter days fulfilled by his Lego’s. She looked at him, proud. Proud of his acts, his priceless beauty, his plum cheeks, mesmerizing eyes and subtle lips.
The fact, that he was growing every minute. That he was a part of her. It felt like just a day before that she had given birth to this little being, and today he was chewing on soggy Chocó’s.
The whole thing was magic to her; it fascinated her. She was, just happy.
She loved this, motherhood, womanhood. Life-hood? She wanted to take in everything life had to offer now that she was in the most beautiful city, Paris.
And with her, she wanted her little one to experience every bit of it too. To make him believe he was blessed, like she was. It’s wonderful isn’t it? Just having all of that you ever wanted?
She picked him up as he smiled through his father inherited dimples and bunny teeth. ‘Sleepy baby?’ she whispered to him seeing his eyes droop with sleep. He nodded. ‘Just as I thought!’ There was something miraculous about being a mother, she knew everything!
She could smell the milk from his mouth, his baby powder, the slight hint of his father’s perfume. Being in the aura of that scent was bliss for her.
She laid him in his blue coloured carriage and kissed him on his forehead.
7 p.m. she looked at the clock, she blushed. 6 years of marriage and yet, every day when he came back she would get butterflies in her stomach.
She made her way downstairs; she could smell the fresh breeze as she wrapped her jacket tighter. ‘Lovely’. She greeted the chef’s that made pizzas. Olives, tomatoes, chicken, the sauce, all put together for the perfect pizza.
As she walked, the baker she knew smiled at her through the large window of her shop. The baguette and croissants, in heart of Paris… What more could you want?
She walked in as the shop’s little bell tinkered.
“Bonjour mademoiselle”; the baker said with utmost joy.
“Bonjour madam”; She replied.
“Un, baguette?”(One baguette?)
“Oi” (sure/yes); said the baker handing her the crispiest baguette off the lot.
‘Mademoiselle’ (Used for an unmarried girl); I wonder why she calls me that even though she knows I’m a mother.
What she did not know was that her beautiful, fragile face hardly made her look old. She was simple, devoted, and innocent and filled with love. ‘Divine’.
‘5 months I’d guess.’ She said looking at a woman with a baby in her. Placing her hand on her own stomach, she was reminded of the struggles, the pain, and the lifelong medicines, all for one gift. The one gift she treasured, her only son.
She’d love to have another baby, a beautiful girl maybe, someone to play with her son, but she knew that would be a dream.Having him was a miracle in its self.
She walked back, holding the paper covered baguette, she loved bread, but her diet restricted her. Sweets, soft drinks, rice all of it.
PCOD. The name had haunted her since she was 16. Pills, embarrassment, comments, excess weight. Even her dating life had sucked.
She looked at the carriage; there he lay peaceful and asleep. She walked home happy and filled with gratitude for him and her son.
She lived each moment, surgeries and doctor’s appointment had taught her that. Her pregnancy was a complete risk, with PCOD, it’s hardly possible. She risked it and fought it because she wanted to give birth to someone as perfect as her husband.
As she made her way back, she saw her beloved. The one she loved, more than god. He stood by her day in and day out. Loved her unconditionally for her strengths and weaknesses.
Weakness.PCOD. The one she made her strength.
He smiled at her, ‘Ready with dinner?’ ‘Always’, she replied, looking at her husband, kissing ‘their’ son.
She loved the two men in her life;she loved PCOD for making her so strong.
P.S. This is a fictional story.Hope it becomes reality for the many fighting through.